Lithium

Now I understand why you wouldn't look into my eyes. Now I know you weren't true, you kept dangerous things hidden. I know the reason of your lovely laugh and your sudden blue. I know why you never thought about me and my feelings. You were too busy trying to figure out yours first. Why didn't you trust me? Why didn't you tell me about it before? I fear I hurt you when I never meant to. I feel betrayed. Once you told me you loved me, and now there's nothing left of that. Did you lie to me? And I don't know if it's just another one of your crisis or for once you're telling me the truth. The worst is that I still loving you. I can love you over all those things you've hidden to me. Maybe you fear I would run away from you? I know you've felt alone for a long time, so have I. And I cannot get used to the idea that you're going away from me forever. I need you, don't you see? My love is true, I can go on with this after all. You can trust me, you're important to me. I've never had met someone as amazing as you before. I don't need to pretend that I'm person I'm not. With you sometimes I still alone, but without you I can't be. And I would leave everything to go back to the start and make things right this time. But I know I can't. It's all lost. And my heart is dying.
All the feelings you took away are coming home again. Darkness surrounds me, getting stronger. All my old ghosts are here to start the haunting again. Apathy and bitterness quickly find their place again. And the devastating feeling of being completely alone, with no one who understands... I don't know how to find a way to carry on with this. I just want to sleep and dream of us.